Down By The Riverside

"For the intimate revelations of young men, or at least the terms in which they express them, are usually plagiaristic and marred by obvious suppressions." 
-The Great Gatsby
So i'm thinking of getting the above quote tatted on me seeing as i keep forgetting that any involvement with men is not conducive to me living a harmonious life. Let me elaborate a little..
After watching Inception, and learning that it's absolutely, filthily, god-awfully wrong to plant ideas in other peoples heads etc, i only went and did it to myself, for reasons only my subconscious knows..
i had an idea in my head, and then i met somebody and because the person seemed like the perfect vessel at the time i realised that i could let him become the embodiment of my idea/ideal.. trouble is i somehow forgot to keep the two separate in the back of my head, and the whole thing ended up festering in my head and heart like a sweet dream/beautiful nightmare.. 
basically, because i wanted A boy to be THE boy i willingly believed all the "intimate revelations" which i already knew were "plagiaristic and marred by obvious suppressions" and ended up falling for my own bullshit hook, line and sinker..
make sense? ..no?..ok whatever
i needed time to re-evaluate my behaviour so i ran away to the coast for a few days, to pamper myself, eat peanut MnM's(aka manna from heaven) and wade in the water..
wearing: cut offs / denim shirt: Topshop / jumper: The Teddy Bear Club
If there's one thing I'm blessed with it's a good brain so i came to the conclusion that i should use it more often to evaluate the matters that concern my heart.
And i guess if there's a time to make mistakes, it's now when i'm young and agile enough to run/jump/hike over them and move the fuck on!
x

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

life has taught me that boys suck and so does love!
btw love the blog.x

InnyVinny said...

Reflection is always nice, even when boys aren't involved.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Boys are icky.

Florie said...

i'm gonna be a fake lesbian from now on.. or maybe a fake nun i dunno just something that doesn't involve romantic attachments to men :]